When baby cries

When I first became a mother, I was quite ambitious, not to say wanting to be a “super mum”, but at least “above average”. So I read all the books on parenting, childcare I could find and felt very confident. I had plans of breastfeeding, sleeping training, toilet training, speech training and early childhood education all lines up.

The reality however, shaked up my self-confidence. Though I had all the book knowledge, I found my baby somewhat “special”. So I had tough time to deal with my first baby. My days often ran haywire; I normally could not have my lunch until 2:00 pm, after my baby napped. Very often, the moment I sat down for my meals, my baby waked up. I ended up so tired and drained, left little energy for other house keeping.
My husband was however, not as sympatric as I expected. After he observed me rushing to pick up my baby a few times in the meal times, he commented “This guy is spoiled; he knows he can control you by crying.” So he “ordered” me not to pick him up when he cries next time.
The next moment, I stopped to run to him when my baby cried, I waited as my husband suggested. it seemed the longest hours I had to wait. My husband remained cool, paid no attention to his cry. But I felt that I was sitting on a carpet full of tacks, 15 minutes, half hour past, I could not bear to hear his cry any longer. As I was going to rush toward him, the cry stopped. I was so surprised and tipped toes to see what happened, I found my son was already asleep. That was the first lesson of training for me, “Don’t be under controls of babies cries”