For better or for worse, being a full time mother is like a two edged sword for my children and myself. My children have brought out the best of and the worst of me. In other social settings, you tend to be more conscious of your own behaviours, but, when you at home alone with children, your true colour really shows, and often takes you out of guard.
I am surprised to find many facets of ugliness in my personality and characters while I was totally unaware of before. Children have helped me to know myself better.
When I teach them about our sins and forgiveness of God by the blood of Lord Jesus Christ, shame to say, there are many times I have to ask my children to forgive me for my bad behaviours, bad attitudes and stubbornness. Children are the most forgiving people, no matter what a terrible mother you are, they seem always ready to forgive. That brings me to reflect the Bible's teaching: " Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered." Psalm 32:1. Motherhood is like another training for women and a sublimely purifying process for a person.
There are also some adjustment on family culture and developing. Each of us all carried own unique family culture before entering marriage. In my own family, children are not allowed to utter a sound, we children can only speak when we are spoken to. However, my husband, being quite liberal, encourages dynamic dialogue in all kinds at dinner table . So the noise of our dinner table sometimes can really push off the ceiling. When my parents came to visit me, they felt quite shocked. I learnt to be give and take, no insisting on my own ways.
My main reason for being a Stay at home mum is wish to develop close relationship with our children. I find it also help me to develop better and mature human beings. Thank God for All his mercy and grace.
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