The One Thing

Life is a beautiful journey......

When I was below 10, I lived my live mostly for my parents, I did whatever they asked me to do; I think I was good child then :)

When I was below 20, I lived my life for my teachers and my peers; my world was revolving by their influence;

When I was below 30, I was quite lost, it took me a while to find out who were I,  what did I want.....I am glad that GOD found me and I found HIM. With HIS divine guidance, my husband and I found each other.

When I was below 40, I lived my life for my children, day in and day out, I was "Only a Mum" and "Full Time Mother"  with some notions of being "Good Mother", holding unrealistic supermum kind of standard, I struggled, teared on, but no turning back.

My children meanwhile have grown up, bravely shouldered through some of worst moments of  my temper; my harshness and my ridiculous standard I held towards them.....Thank God, they didn't cracked by me. Now looking back, I wish I could have done differently; less strict, more loving; less routine, more fun …… Children are most forgiving creatures, till today, they still say they love me.

Years in the 40th properly were the toughest time for majority of human kind.  Up with elderly parents, now with school going kids.....

It was during that time,  my mother was found to have late stage of lung cancer, after battling for three years, we buried her.
It was during that time, I  was confronted by teenagers rebelliousness.  At the wit' end, I surrounded all to GOD.  One day, I came to realization that as parent, our children's future is also in God's hand, it is all  by GOD's grace and mercy, should they be successful, godly and happy; what I can do is to be there for them, when time they need.

Now I am turning 50 years old this, the age, in Chinese idiom, when should know Heavenly calling, I am pondering……As for the first time, I have the real sense that Now I am living for myself.

Recently, I read this book by Gary Keller "The One thing", this book challenge me to find “The One Thing” to be my life purpose, to live a productive life. To put things in perspective, I will say bye to Only A Mum and going to looking for The One Thing

So, while I am still a mum, but not only, for now, I am looking for my own The One Thing.