Unexpected Gift

I have been constantly feeling tired these days. I know it because the unexpected present from God.

I have more or less come to term with this surprise. Still, I cannot help but giving thanks unto HIM.

That day I went to see my gyne, Dr Lim Lian Soon,the sister nursers were overjoyed to see me. (all my other four children were delivered by Dr Lim) It was such a familiar feeling that made me want to cry.

"Of course, keep it, you never know what God prepares for you" one sister said to me, as she took measure of my blood pressure. Abortion is never an option. I know, yet in depth of my heart, I am just like a whining kid begging for mercy.

"After this one, ask Dr Lim to do a tubal ligation ...." another sister helpfully suggested.

"Oh, Robin, so glad to see you" Dr Lim almost shouted out, he is such a cheerful man, it is hard to stay gloomy when he is around.

"I see a green card." He lowered his voice and peeped me through his glass, I nodded my head, somewhat sadly.

"Where is Batman?" He said loudly again.

"He dares not come to see you." I laughed.

It was truly the reflective accountability that worked, after I finished my rhetoric emotional sharing, I was feeling much better, and Dr Lim, meanwhile, just listened silently, only when I finished, he added " doesn't it mean you cannot do all these."

"Can I ?" I smiled through my tears.

"Anyway, let me check whether you are really pregnant?"

"It is important to make sure that pregnant sect is within the womb.“ He explained as he prepared the Ultrasound jelly .

"Yeah, here we are, a tiny pregnant sect!" Now he was back to the role of doctor. I was amazed to realized how just then he subtly shifted his role as a friend with kind listening ears.

The Tow Young Clinic was foundered by Christian doctors, one of founders was the senior pastor of my previous church, all the employees are supposed to be Christian too. Different from many other clinics, they uphold the Christian value and give patients extra love and care.

"So, we will see you for next nine months." One of sisters patting my shoulders.

"I guess so."

”Peace, I leave with you, my peace I give unto you, not as the world gives, give I unto you, Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." (John 14:27)

That night, my husband massaged my lower back, almost every pregnancy I suffered from lower back pain. "well, isn't that your fault? now you pay for it." I was half joking.

"My pleasure and my honor" He said shamelessly 大笑

I told him what Dr Lim said and what sisters suggested on tubal ligation.

"Oh, no, please don't" he said.

"What? don't you have enough of five children?" I was almost indignant.

"What I mean is, it is dangerous, and if something happens to me, you might want to remarry and have children...."

"Oh, no ,You are asking for trouble....."I pounded his chest like drum...

Tired as I was, my heart filled with thanksgiving, for this unexpected gift from God, for my doctor and helpful sister nurses, for daily strength and .....of course....for my husband.